She partied hard and on one occasion she threw a party at a hotel where she was drinking and using Adderall. One of her dancers told on her and she punched the dancer in the face. This resulted in Lovato being sent to rehab, which is where she was diagnosed as bipolar. “I wasn’t working my program. I wasn’t ready to get sober. I was sneaking it on planes, sneaking it in bathrooms, sneaking it throughout the night. Nobody knew.” What followed was a two-month period where she was using every day. One night, she did cocaine and took Xanax. “I started to choke a little bit,” she says. “My heart started racing, and I remember thinking, ‘Oh my God, I might be overdosing right now.'” Lovato was out of control and being very difficult to work with, to the point that her management team was ready to leave her.
She eventually got sober, and one of the people that helped her was Wilmer Valderrama. “When I was in a relationship with Wilmer, I went three years without purging,” she continues. “When we broke up, that’s one of the first things I did. When I feel lonely, my heart feels hungry, and then I end up bingeing, and I don’t know how to figure out how to be alone.” They started dating when she was 18 and he was close to 30. “I think it was love at first sight, and I don’t really believe in that, but I believe that it happened. We connected on a level that I’ve never connected with anybody before. He was just my rock, my everything.” The pair are now broken up, but still remain friends. “You don’t share six years with somebody and not give them a piece of your heart, and vice-versa. I’m pretty sure that I’m not gonna meet anybody that compares to him, but I’m trying to keep an open heart and an open mind when it comes to that.”
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