Paul Walker’s death was extremely difficult, not only for his daughter Meadow, but for his Fast and Furious family. From Vin Diesel to Michelle Rodriguez, every cast member had a deep connection with Walker, so much that Diesel named his daughter after Walker (Pauline) and Rodriguez recently revealed how the grief of losing her dear friend consumed her. 
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In a new documentary, The Reality of Truth, Rodriguez opened up about how the passing of Walker turned her world upside down. “When I lost Paul, I went through a year of just being like an animal, like, what could I do, physically, to get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we just come here and can disappear at any moment,” she said.
In the documentary, she joins host Mike “Zappy” Zapolin in Peru where they explore the relationship between spirituality, religion and psychedelics. During that time Rodriguez used the Peruvian psychedelic plant ayahuasca, which she describes as the “destruction of everything I’ve ever known.”
Rodriguez fell into a deep depression where she wanted to hide herself from the world, feeling sad that Walker had left her here. “It wasn’t a sadness that he’s gone, it’s more like a jealousy that he’s there first.”
Eventually she decided that she had to stop. “I just woke up [one morning] with a profound respect for living,” said Rodriguez. “I stood tall one day, and I said, ‘You know what, Michelle? Stop f—king hiding. Go manifest.’ And all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling,” she said in an interview to US Weekly.
Losing someone is extremely difficult, especially when you’re in the spotlight like Rodriguez and the rest of the Fast and Furious co-stars. Paul Walker died in 2013 and even though it’s been a couple of years since his passing, the grief never ends, but there are ways to cope with it.